Monday, March 30, 2015

The Risen Glory




Cross-made-homely, scorn-crowned, scarred-

the Crucified

His hands in flames


and feet


held captive by the nails


               that tore


His man-garb,


Splattered blood


on windy ground.


The sky


                fell dark


and ominous


The vale, dark-rent and torn asunder


                               while the thunder drowned


the drone of earth


                       As God - as Man


bowed down His head


                         surrendered up His soul


and died. The Crucified--


and It is Finished.


Finished--


                            Father-grace-bestowed


The Son-born-wrath


The anguished face, dark sky


and grace


washed over me


These beams of mercy


flood my soul


with light--------------


His life


                       for mine


                                      The creature-homely


Drinking fully


Deeply-


Glory, glory!


Finished grace


And mercy


                     Wholly


                     Richly satisfied


The blood applied.

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Friends, I pray that you have a blessed Easter celebrating the resurrection of our precious Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ . . . I'd like to offer you my devotional, This Last Surrender, for $0.99 (for Kindle only). Share it with a family member, friend, or download a copy for yourself! I pray that it will be a blessing and refreshment for you and draw your heart nearer to our Lord and Savior.

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Thursday, March 26, 2015

Monthly Book Giveaway: The Biography of George Muller, by Arthur T. Pierson

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This month's book giveaway focuses on a man who has inspired, encouraged, and challenged countless believers to live their lives by faith and not by sight. George Muller was an ordinary man who accomplished the extraordinary through the power of Almighty God. Known for his founding of the Bristol orphanages in England in the 1800's, Muller was a man who believed that the Lord answered the prayers of His people. An example of living by faith alone in an all-sufficient God, this book will bless the reader immensely. 



Description of the book (from Christian Book Distributors):

This revision of the classic biography George Muller of Bristol tells of a life characterized by prayer, faith, and self-denial in the cause of Christ. George Muller (1805-1898) was well known for his constant faith in God and for providing an education to the children under his care. During his lifetime, he established 117 schools that educated more than 120,000 young persons, including orphans. From the age of seventy until ninety, Mr. Muller made great evangelistic tours. He traveled 200,000 miles, going around the world and preaching in many lands and in several different languages.

George Muller of Bristol was written the year after Muller's death by his close friend, American preacher and evangelist Arthur T. Pierson (1837-1911). Pierson served prominent pulpits both in America and Great Britain, preaching for two years at the Metropolitan Tabernacle following C. H. Spurgeon's death. He lectured at Moody Bible Institute in Seoul, Korea.





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Monday, March 23, 2015

Sounding the Trumpet Call: An Interview with William Levi, Part 2

I pray that you were blessed by Part 1 of "Sounding the Trumpet Call: An Interview with William Levi." If you haven't read Part 1, please click HERE for a little more background information about Messianic Jew, William Levi, his work, and his mission. His story is a fascinating one, heavy with grace, and I pray that it will touch your spirit and resonate with the trumpet call of Christ's calling upon your own life. 



Before going any further, I'm also so full of joy to share with you that my devotional, This Last Surrender, is now available in paperback and on Kindle. It is a 31-day devotional for women who seek a deeper walk with Christ. I pray that it will a great encouragement. Here are the links for purchase on Amazon: 









And now, for Part 2 of Sounding the Trumpet Call: An Interview with William Levi



When did you come to the United States?

By the grace of God, I finally arrived safe and secure in the United States of America on August 28, 1988.  It had been 27 years since I escaped from my native country of Sudan, yet I knew that my journey was just beginning.  My travels spanned four continents and three seas and by 2004, my travel had gone 360 degrees. In January 2004, 18 years later, I returned back to South Sudan to my small village of Beth Israel,  which had become a wilderness after 18 years in desolations. I founded myself standing in the same foundation of the ruin of my family house where my parents blessed me in January of 1985, before I left for America in the midst of persecution.   I had passed the great river, I had crossed a vast desert, and I had lived as a stranger among people who were strange to me, yet so many of them also have become my extended families in Yeshua. They have embraced me in the Love of  Yeshua and we become brothers and sisters.   My journey had been fraught with uncertainty and peril; but God had kept me through it all, as though refining me by fire.  After my brief sojourn in Egypt for 18 months and Turkey for three months, I spent another 18 months in Lyon, France.  The French people were very kind to me and I was permitted to remain in their country.  French was language number four for me, and I studied it with a vengeance as I worked dead-end jobs to get by.  I soon realized that it would take several years of study to reach a level of fluency necessary for a college education within the French university system.  Still, I kept trying to advance myself.  Meanwhile, I discovered that truly godly men like Father Nus were not all that common in the “Christian” west.  Although Europe in general and France in particular had much to offer, the post-Christian values of the French culture were quite a shock to my sensibilities. The moral codes shared by Christians in Africa were considered to be old-fashioned by the Europeans; and many European churches were lukewarm in their enthusiasm for the Gospel.  Still, I managed to find a church family in France.

 After nearly two years in France, God finally opened the door for me to travel to the United States.  The opportunity was like a dream come true for me.  As my airplane arched into the sky, I felt like my life was about to start all over again.
Upon my arrival in the USA in 1988, I briefly stayed with an Irish American family in Milton, MA whose son, Late Mr. Michael Greenan, whom I met in Egypt in 1986.  After three weeks in Milton, MA, I decided to go to Washington DC to apply for a political asylum and meet the US immigration obligation.  I took a Greyhound bus from Boston, MA and upon arrival in Newark, NJ train Station, I stepped out of the bus, thinking that I arrived in Washington, DC but rather I was still 266 miles away from my final destination. At that point, I decided to pray and seek God for answers. I got a clear directive from His word. “The place where you are is a holy ground.”  Newark, NJ would become my home for the next 8 years.  It was in Newark NJ where the Lord dealt with me.   He set my feet on the rock.  I knew I could not do without Him. I knew I had to obey His word and His Voice. As He says in John 15:5 -8   “Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing. If anyone does not abide in Me, he is thrown away as a branch and dries up; and they gather them, and cast them into the fire and they are burned.…abide in Me, for without Me you can do nothing.” So it was in Newark, NJ that the Lord planted me in a city in the late 80s considered to be the number one crime city in America. But the Lord was with me.  As Jesus says in His word, obedience is better than sacrifice.  I knew I had to be in the Word of God and in the will of God.  I knew I had to be in fellowship with the body of Christ. I knew I had to be grounded in a local church. I knew I had to be legal in the country and obey the law of the land.   I knew I had to find a job, work with my own hands, as the Bible says: Psalm 90:17: May the favor of the Lord our God rest on us; establish the work of our hands for us-yes, establish the work of our hands.

Arriving in America with nothing, except my Bible, I knew, first thing was first.  As the Bible says "Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and the rest will be added unto you. "   In 1988, 27 years ago, upon my arrival in the USA,   I had a lot to learn before getting too much ahead of myself.  When I arrived in the USA, I committed my life and plan to the Lord and asked him to help me direct my path in America.   In obedience to the word of God, I had to overcome youthful temptations and the desire of the flesh which America has plenty to offer. I was all by myself.  But I also knew that I was not alone, Christ in me.  I tried faithfully to stay grounded in the Bible and sought out a community of true believers in the household of faith whom I considered to be my family.  It as Proverbs 3: 5-6 says, "Lean not on your own understanding, but in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path." After 3 and half years of sleepless nights of college education and work, I ended up holding a degree in Manufacturing Engineering from NJIT in 1992. Then in July 1993, I answered God’s call in my life to establish Operation Nehemiah Missions to help alleviate the plight of my people back in South Sudan.   

How and when did you come to know the Lord Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior? 

 I’m going to start my testimony of Salvation here.  It has been 37 years since coming to the Lord. My Spiritual journey has been triumphant seasoned with a lot of blessings, challenges and opportunities to be a witness for the Great Commission.  In this journey, I have gone through the valleys and the mountain tops and walk through the tableland.  All in all, these experiences fulfill the promises that all believers have to go through to be true disciple of Yeshua. It is to refine us as we go through the refining process to conform us to the image of Yeshua for the Glory of God as we read in Romans 5, James 1 and 1 Peter 4,  2 Peter 1, etc.        

Last year, on the 9th, May 2014, I went back to the village of Opari Nykanigwa, Eastern Equatoria, South Sudan with my wife Hannah and our six children where I surrendered my life to Yeshua on December 25, 1977.  I was barely 13 at the time.   Last May, 37 years later, I came back with Spiritual fruits of 7 souls that God entrusted to me (Hannah and the children) whose lives have been intertwined with my own on this spiritual journey.    I’m like Peter saying, “I have nowhere else to go, I have tasted the goodness of God’s grace and  found my resting place in Yeshua, and have no other argument." "So Jesus said to the twelve, 'You do not want to go away also, do you?' Simon Peter answered Him, 'Lord, to whom we shall go? You have words of eternal life. We have believed and have come to know that you are the Holy One of God.'"…John 6: 67-69. 

It was here where I grew up both physically and spiritually. Opari Nykanigwa is located in Eastern Equatoria in the midst of a very beautiful expanse of mountains and rivers.  What a blessing it was for me to bring my family after 37 years, still walking in the faith I had embraced in Yeshua and to stand on the Kulojobi River bed where God transformed my life as a young lad into a new man.   As you read in my book, The  Bible or the Axe, “ it was here for three years 1975-1977, I received discipleship  under my Grandpapa Bishop Andea Vuni who baptized me on Christmas of December 25,   1977 Hannah and the children were so touched.   It was December of 1977, and the quiet, brown waters of the Kulo-jobi River lapped and eddied along rocky banks that had been exposed by the long dry season.  The dry season was the time of baptism in most villages, because that was when the waters were calm.  In August, torrential rains would swell the river bed-and the Kulo-jobi would rage and boil again.  It wouldn’t do to have congregants swept away by the currents.

 I stood on the shore as a skinny boy of thirteen that December, feeling the packed dirt beneath my bare feet.  It was a happy feeling.  Tall grasses bent and rustled as a warm breath of dry air soughed across the savannah lands, mingling the scents of sun-dappled vegetation and hot earth.  The mountains stood out in sharp relief in the blue sky beyond the wooded riverbanks. It was easy to think about God’s great love for me as I drank in the beauty of my surroundings.

I barely noticed the others from my baptismal group as they gathered by the river. The mood was reverent, and people spoke only in whispers as we all waited for the ceremony to begin.  Finally, my grandfather appeared and stood beneath a huge old tree by the riverbank to address the congregation.  As he spoke, I studied the water that flowed gently behind him.  I was about to venture into that water to be immersed!  The river was muddy this time of year, and I hoped that there was nothing sinister lurking in the shallows.  Alligators, snakes, and even sharp rocks might be waiting for me there, but grandfather didn’t seem to be even a little bit concerned. I shook off my childish fears and began to listen to the sermon.  It was time to become a man and a full member of the church.  I wanted to be ready.  Once again, the text for grandfather’s sermon was from Ephesians.  He spoke of the struggles that we would endure if we chose to cast our lot with Jesus Christ.  “Yeshua was a man acquainted with grief,” he said.  “If you wish to partake of His glory, you must understand that you will be asked to partake of his suffering.”  The congregants nodded at grandfather’s words.  Every single person there knew what it was like to be targeted for persecution.  “Are you willing to lay down your lives for the sake of the gospel?”  It was quiet except for the cheerful song of a colorful bird and the chirping of insects in the grass.  Each person pondered grandfather’s words, fully understanding that they might eventually be called upon to do just that.  Grandfather surveyed the crowd before him, love and pain mingled in his expression.  “A good soldier must be prepared to die.  But we have God’s armor, protecting our eternal spirit against the devil’s schemes.” 

I was too young to completely understand the implications of grandfather’s words. Yes, we had lived as refugees, and I knew that boys like me were sometimes stolen from refugee camps to become slaves.  I also knew something of war; and I knew that my own father believed that our current peace agreement was a fragile one.  But I didn’t really imagine that I would ever be asked to deny Christ or face death.  Grandfather, though, knew from experience that some would die for their convictions, and he had been working to prepare his congregation for just such a possibility. “Put on the helmet of salvation, and the breastplate of righteousness,” he continued. “Make sure your feet are shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace.”  I looked down at my toes.  Little puffs of dirt swirled up between them as I dug them into the dirt of the riverbank.  I tried to imagine that I was wearing gospel shoes.  The image was an odd one, but I understood that the scripture wasn’t talking about real shoes, or real armor.  The war, though, was very real.  “Most importantly, learn to wield the Sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God.”  Grandfather was finished with his sermon, and we all sang a hymn.  It was time for the baptismal ceremony to take place.  Murmurs of excitement rose all around me as everyone jostled for a better view.

It was a special time for everyone, because most families had at least one member preparing for this sacrament.  When my name was finally called, I walked toward the great tree that served as a podium for our outdoor gathering.  Its branches spread lazily overhead, swaying softly in the breeze.  Great roots twisted into the riverbank at crazy angles, jutting up like solid benches; perfect for sitting on.  Grandfather looked into my eyes, and I sensed that he was studying my face very carefully.  He was searching for something in my expression, but I wasn’t sure what that something could be. “William Ochan Levi,” he said. “Your enemy will come.”  I nodded dumbly.  Without a word, grandfather produced an axe and placed it on a broad root of the great tree.  Next to it, he placed the Bible.  Then he turned and focused his gaze on me once again.  “When your enemy comes to destroy you, which weapon will you choose?” Would it be the Bible, or the axe?  I was taken aback by the question.  If my enemies were coming towards me, preparing to kill me, I would certainly want to have that broad, sharp axe in my hand.  I could almost feel the heft of the smooth wooden handle, worn by years of hewing trees. 

The sharp head of the axe was a perfect counterbalance to the haft, and I knew what it felt like to send the sharp steel ringing into a sturdy trunk.  Surely the axe would give me a fighting chance against the swords of the jihad.  For we battle not against flesh and blood… The words of my scripture lessons flooded my mind with a new clarity.  Suddenly, I understood that I would never be able to fight my enemy with a weapon of steel. Almost as if by instinct, my hand reached for the Bible.  Grandfather smiled, and I thought I detected a fleeting expression of relief.  “You have chosen the right way,” he said at last.  We waded together into the murky water, and I no longer thought of snakes and alligators.  I knew that I would have to trust God for my life just as I trusted Him for my soul.  I emerged from the water a changed man. From that point on ward, I’m pressing on the race set before us.”  This has been my spiritual journey. No regrets. I’m pressing on to the upwards callings.   



Please join me next week for part 3 of this encouraging interview. 

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Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Releasing Today! This Last Surrender: A 31-Day Devotional for Women by Rebekah Neal

Releasing Today:

This Last Surrender


A 31-Day Devotional for Women Seeking a Deeper Relationship with Jesus Christ 

by Rebekah Neal 



Description from the back of the book:

Are you weary in spirit – looking for deep rest? 

Are you thirsty in your soul – needing living water? 
Do you long for a word of encouragement, helping you to persevere through the seeming monotony of motherhood, the press of modern culture, and the difficulties of the Christian life? 

Savor This Last Surrender, a 31-day devotional adapted from some of the most beloved posts from Rebekah Neal’s blog “Ready to be Offered.” Here, you’ll discover a respite – not an escape; a time of refreshment rather than of distraction; and an opportunity to surrender daily everything – heart, soul, mind, and body – to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. 

You’ll find each day’s selection includes nourishing quotes from past Christians who have walked the narrow way before us, as well as a heart-softening, soul-enriching selection from Rebekah. Ranging from, “Why It’s Not About Losing the Last Ten Pounds,” to “Is He Enough?”, Rebekah handles topics close to almost every woman’s heart with unswerving Scriptural faithfulness and love. 

Every daily reading includes questions for prayer, journaling, or small-group discussion.

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Monday, March 16, 2015

Sounding the Trumpet Call: An Interview with William Levi, Part 1



William Levi is the founder and director of OMNI--Operation Nehemiah Missions International. Operation Nehemiah's mission is "to rebuild & restore the Biblical family and the Church in the republic of the South Sudan which is recovering from the ashes of war & Islamic persecution through the preaching of the Gospel, promoting sustainable & Biblical stewardship. As Nehemiah 2: 18 says. 'Let us rise and build, so they join their hands together for this good work.'" 


The Lord wonderfully and providentially allowed my path to cross with William Levi's and his family's after reading his autobiographical book, The Bible or the Axe, and subsequently contacting him to speak at the church where I attended after I finished his fascinating story of persecution, escape, and subsequent ministry. William obeyed the call of God upon his life and returned to his homeland to rebuild there what had been broken by war and devastation. His story is one of trial and persecution, suffering for the sake of the Gospel, and difficulty. It is also one of hope, redemption, grace , and the miraculous and powerful hand of God upon his and his family's lives. I've divided this interview into several parts. I felt that it was too full and rich to condense. I encourage you to read and savor each part and rejoice in the way that the Lord is using this humble, willing man and his family for the glory of our precious Lord. I'd also encourage you to visit his website, Facebook page, and order a copy of his deeply encouraging book, the The Bible or the Axe. I know that it will be a blessing to you. 





And now, Part 1 of Sounding the Trumpet Call: An Interview with William Levi . . .


Would you tell us a little about your upbringing and background?

I was born and raised in Moli, Eastern Equatoria State, and South Sudan in 1964. From January 1, 1956- July 09, 2011, the Republic of South Sudan was part of the Sudan after the country got her independence from Great Britain. The northern part of the Sudan was Arab and Islamic and the Southern part of the Sudan was African and Christians. I came out of a generation in the Sudan that was born and raised in between two major wars of religious persecution conducted by Sudan Islamic regime to the north against Christian families and churches in the South Sudan. Between 1955-2005, the war of Islamic persecution claimed 2 million Christians and 4.5 million people displaced into exile. I was the seventh among twelve siblings, five boys and seven girls. My parents lost three of our brothers and sister. There are 9 of us alive to date. Our home was in a small village called Moli in the equatorial district on the eastern bank of the Nile River, bordering Uganda. My parents, Ajjugo and Anna Levi, were devout Messianic Hebrews of the tribe of Levi, the son of Jacob to whom the hereditary priesthood was entrusted. By the providence of God, we found ourselves deep in the African interior along the Nile valley. For ages this beautiful land has become our dwelling place for many generations.

My family lived off the land. We had a lot of ancestral farmland on which my parents built our home and raised food to support our family. As Messianic Hebrews, living in a country where our faith was constantly tested and tried, by fire of Islamic persecution, my parents raised us up to love God with all our hearts, minds and souls. They instill the word of God into our hearts according to scriptures. “These words, which I am commanding you today, shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your sons and shall talk of them when you sit in your house and when you walk by the way and when you lie down and when you rise up. "You shall bind them as a sign on your hand and they shall be as frontals on your forehead.” Deuteronomy 6: 4-9.

My parents were faithful couple. They loved the Lord and they were hardworking farmer who wanted to raise us up with the love and fear of God and to be hard work. Little did we know that within a year of my birth, Islamic war of persecution would engulfed my village and my community which caused my parents to flee to Uganda as refugees for the next 15 years?



In the year following my birth, the situation in the Sudan became increasingly unstable. The war escalated and spread from the larger population centers in the cities out into the countryside until even small villages were in disarray. No one was safe. Our future was uncertain. Churches were burned, schools were closed, and crops were destroyed and western missionaries were expelled. The conflict had touched our small town. The parents in our community feared for the safety of their families, and many people determined to escape from Southern Sudan across the border into Uganda. My parents decided in late 1965 that the time had come to leave our beloved homeland. For the most part, I grew up as a refugee in the wilderness of Uganda during the first Sudan’s Islamic Persecution against Christians in the South Sudan.

My very first memories as a child are those of growing up as a refugee in Uganda. I didn’t think of myself as a “refugee”, because my parents provided me with the stability of their love and worked hard to build a home for us without the help of the UN camps. I just knew that I was born in the Sudan, and that our family would return there some day. As it turned out, that day was a very long time in coming. Our family would have to make the best of a bad situation for nearly ten years. My parents were farmers, hardworking and industrious. They felt the Lord would have them to raise their children and their crops in peace. But the land in the Abalo Kodi region was not fertile, and the population was too dense. The additional crowding brought about by the refugee crisis made this particular location untenable for any sort of long term living arrangement. There was simply no way to grow the food necessary to support a family. My parents were soon forced to make the difficult decision to move on, trusting God to provide a place for them. They knew that they would have to step out in faith, believing that God had a good and perfect plan for their family. With fervent prayer and careful inquiry, my father sought out a home for us in the Ugandan wilderness. He was well aware that the wrong choice could prove disastrous. I remember how it came about that our family moved away from the safety of Abalo Kobi into the untamed Ugandan wilderness with nothing but strong faith and strong arms to sustain us.“ My father’s face reflected his resolve to find a suitable home for his growing family. My Mother Anna was his partner in everything, and she completed him in every way. She had an inner beauty that radiated through her life and in her actions. Mama was gracious, hospitable, and tough—she and my father made a great team. Mother was not afraid of settling in the Ugandan wilderness. God blessed me with two wonderful parents, and I loved them very much.

I still cherish my first memories of my parents working together to open the wilderness, building a home and a productive farm with nothing but hard work and trust in the Lord. And it was so beautiful. It was as if God had re-created the Garden of Eden right there in Uganda. Every type of animal and plant flourished in the unspoiled jungle. We built our home atop a hill beside a huge tamarind tree. This leafy giant grew to over fifty feet tall, and its pretty yellow flowers gave way in season to a wild edible fruit. I remember that its broad boughs provided a dense shade, suitable for family gatherings away from the hot equatorial sun. Tamarind fruit, called “iti” in the Madi tongue, changes from green to brown when it is ripe; and the juicy flesh is both sugary and sour. I loved to peel away the fibrous brown pod and suck out the juice, spitting out the seeds as I ate. 



My Mother knew that it was an excellent source of vitamins, and she used it to flavor porridge and also for medicinal purposes. When work was done, I learned to climb in the sturdy limbs of our Tamarind tree. My brothers and sisters could play hide-and-seek among the green branches. Sometimes we would even climb to the top to get a better view if we heard an airplane fly overhead. Living next to that tree was like living next to a park—complete with a playground and a free picnic basket. I suppose it kept us younger children busy while Mother and Father set about the serious business of construction. Building a home with no nails, materials, or power tools is a skill passed down from father to son. I remember watching my father select the proper trees to build our new home. The dense tropical forest was rich with trees, reeds, bamboo, and herbs to be used in the building process. “How about this tree, Father?" I asked, pointing out a sturdy-looking trunk. Father smiled, and reached out to strip away a portion of the bark. Every part of life was an opportunity to teach, and Father was preparing a lesson for me. While our home was being built, my parents did not neglect the planting of food. When my father had mentioned that the land near Ambuluwa Mountain was rich and unspoiled, he was understating the truth. The land was so fertile that plants seemed to spring to life wherever seed touched earth. When we first moved into the wilderness, we had nothing but some provisions that we carried from Uncle’s village. It wasn’t long, though, before we were truly self-sufficient. I can’t remember a time when we didn’t have plenty of fresh, delicious food provided for us from God’s bounty. We drank from streams quite naturally. There was no pollution. Birds and animals of all kinds, such as ostriches, giraffes, lions, leopards, elephants, crocodiles, hippos, buffalo, and many others inhabited the forest. The work was very hard, but the land rewarded our efforts lavishly. We were a happy family. So, although we were refugees driven from our true homeland by war, we did not live as oppressed people. My parents protected us from that. We just knew that we were living in another land, and my parents would often talk about going home to South Sudan someday. By the time we were settled in our wilderness home, all of our relatives were scattered through Uganda.

In the Ugandan wilderness, we knew nothing of going to church; but we came to realize that we were part of the Body of Christ. My parents taught us about God and told us stories from the Bible. Our home was always open for fellowship and prayer. The great tamarind tree became a sort of outdoor chapel where we all could gather to sing and worship together. We had no money, so we joyfully brought the first fruits of all our labor as an offering to the Lord. In keeping with our Hebrew heritage, we never failed to remember the traditional feasts and holidays that had become a part of the very fabric of our lives over the centuries, We were so thankful for God’s provision of a refuge for our family. Soon, several Christian friends of ours from South Sudan began to hear of the little village that my father had started, and they came with their whole families to join us. Little by little, our tamarind tree covered a congregation. Over time, the work of plowing fields and raising roofs became lighter with many hands to help. Eventually, we had a flourishing community with men to build silos and women to weed the gardens, and children to grow together. We called our new village Ambuluwa. Our home was no longer a wilderness.

Thursday, March 12, 2015

My Breastfeeding Battle with Pride

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I nursed my daughter for over a year. 

19 months after my daughter was born, we welcomed a son. 

My body was tired. 

And I was determined to nurse him; it was the best thing for him. It was the right thing. 

I felt the pressure to nurse him--from my own conceptions, from the opinions of outspoken breastfeeding advocates, from some well-meaning friends. (And I do believe that breastfeeding is the beautiful and God-designed way to bond with and nourish one's baby if it is at all possible.)

I was determined to nurse my son. 

But my body was tired. I had had a difficult labor with my daughter, resulting in a third degree tear and a long healing process. 

I struggled to nurse my daughter, daily coping with extreme fatigue and the "shakes" in the afternoon, but pushing on. 

My body was just beginning to recover by the time my son came.  

Another difficult labor; I delivered my son naturally without the aid of any painkillers. He was turned in a posterior position (face down)--something that the midwife realized while I was in labor. 

The labor drained me and after I delivered my son, I couldn't stop shaking. 

An episiotomy and another difficult healing process. 

But I was bound and determined to nurse my son. It was the best thing; it was the right thing. He wouldn't bond to me properly if I didn't nurse him. We didn't have the money to afford formula on our extremely tight budget. 



I struggled to nurse him--for five months. My body felt like it was breaking down. Extreme fatigue from sleeplessness, the toll that the labor had taken on my body, having my babies "back-to back," all weighed down heavily on me. 

And on top of all of this, I had been waking up at night for months with extreme, debilitating pain in my left eye. 

My body was breaking down. I came to a point where even lifting myself up from the floor where I was sitting with my children became a difficulty for me. I lost more than half of my hair and felt like I was breaking down.

My mom continually said to me, "Why don't you bottle-feed him? Your body is breaking down."

But I stubbornly refused, trying to do what I insisted was best for my baby. 

Until the Lord stopped me in my tracks . . . the sleeplessness, the physical toll that my body had taken finally caught up with me and the condition of my left eye worsened. 

I ended up in the emergency room with a grotesquely swollen eye, that was so painful that I couldn't function. 

The doctor told me that I had "waited too long." I had a severe case of recurrent corneal erosion that needed to be treated with steroids and that would be, as he reminded me, recurrent

I need to put expensive medication in my eye every night and will possibly need laser surgery in the future. I will always struggle with pain in my eye.

And that was the point that my pride was broken. 

I slowly stopped nursing my son, transitioning him to formula. 

My strength slowly returned. Daily, I felt that I had more energy to pour into my babies, to be the best mom through the power of the Lord Jesus Christ that I could be. 

I wasn't breastfeeding my baby, but I was feeding my babies with myself, with renewed energy, renewed determination to bring them up in the ways of the Lord, not hanging on to my prideful insistence that breastfeeding was best.





It wasn't best for me. 

And my eye will always be a reminder of how the Lord humbled me. 

The Lord allowed my body to break so that He could teach me to listen to Him in every situation and not demand what I perceived to be best.

Like Jacob's hip, He weakened my eye, so that I would cling to Him in surrender---and as a constant reminder to my stubborn heart. 

And I learned--once again--that we can be holding on to pride in something that's good--

But as Oswald Chambers says, the good can be the enemy of the best.

And for me, in my situation, it was better for me to bottle-feed my baby. 

So that I could give all of my heart and strength into raising my children. 

So that I wouldn't hang on to pride; so that I would learn to humble myself. 

And now, my son, at nine months, is extremely attached to me--it wasn't an issue--

The Lord worked it all out for good.

He shattered my pride, weakened me so that I could be strong in Him. 

And trust myself utterly to His perfect wisdom in handing me His best. 






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